| Yesterday was okay i guess. The morning sucked of course. I cried a lot...and it was incredibly awkward when I had to hug Varun. Considering I don't know him very well, I was surprised when he sat oddly close to me.
The worst part was seeing the kids. Honestly seeing them cry or hug made me cry even more.
It does not even seem real. Like as if at band camp, I'm going to see Miss Bonnie there. And at all the football games...but I wont. And that just doesn't seem right.
It's not fair that this happened to her and that family. It just isn't. And if there was one person who could survive that 3% chance of her surviving, I know it would be her.
Gosh...If I'm this upset, I can't imagine the pain her family is going through. I really can't.
I'm so sorry everyone.
I know Natalia is the only one who might read this. So I'm so sorry Natalia. I really don't know how I would feel if I lost my mom. But Miss Bonnie has always been my biggest hero. She always will be. Because even when times were hard and things were bad, she always had a positive attitude. She would always take the time out of her day to make someone's better. Such as sending me and my mom a plethora of cards and Hanukkah socks. She truly was like my second mother. I remember once for the "Take Your Parent to Class Week" at DDC, my mom couldn't go for both of my classes. So Miss Bonnie offered to be my mom for them. It really made me feel like I was special, having her be my mom, because everyone knew her. Then there was this band spread or something this year. And your parents were supposed to come and you would give them the carnation you bought. Well neither of my parents could come, and of course my mom didn't want me to buy a carnation for her because she thinks they are tacky. So my mom told Miss Bonnie that and told me to come find her when everyone was with their parents. It was just a really caring, warming thing she did. And they honestly made a difference in my life. She's one of those mothers that everyone loves and is so jealous that they cant have her. She really did have so many "adopted" kids. Because any kid that knew her was probably treated just like one of her own. I could go on and on but everything I would say, you probably already know. I will never forget her and I can't imagine who will.
I know that if you counted how many times people said these two words to you, it would be in the millions, and that it's meaning isn't so meaningful anymore. But I'm saying it anyways because you know how sorry me and my family is.
I'm sorry.
And just know that you guys always have our family to support you and help you. We will forever be your redheaded Jew friends.
♥
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| i havent been on here and forever. i got to say i miss it. but not what i talked about.
i might get on here a few times and just write stuff.
hmm today.
today i woke up at 11. which is the latest i have woken up all summer.
ate pancakes.
shower.
persuaded my padre to make me food.
mom told me that she found out im in a relationship. fuck my life.
ate a quesidilla that my brother took part of. grrr.
straightened half of hair. then remembered i have a lesson in 3 minutes.
lesson.
now im sitting here.
me and my madre might go to michaels then dicks. (lol guy names?)
but i dont know.
annnnddd tonight im watching I LOVE MONEY episode with cailey. and maybe michael, austin, and andrew.
YAHOOOOO
my life just sucks sometimes.
i miss so many people. i want to tell them all. but i cant. so i will just name them for all you fine people who are reading this.
sydney, miss bonnie<3, my grandpa, sam., and winter break '07.
i want it alll back. but i never will.
later home dawgs.
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| okay, so now bailey and I are just canceling our myspaces. thats all. not xangas. sooo yeah!1
bye
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| ok, i am cancling my xanga and myspace. Because of hackers and people that might find out who i am and rape me....sooo.....
If you were wise, then you will cancel yours too. Bailey and I are, you can make your own choices though, right?
we feel this is the best .....
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